Stillness and silence

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Being still and silent remains one of the hardest things for me.
It's true; I've lost some interest in going full steam ahead in multiple aspects of my life simultaneously, but that feeling of urgency and impatience to move forward has not vanished. If anything, it seems to have become more predominant as I realize I'm in a race against the clock. I still have many dreams and desires in my heart, ones I've had since I was 20 years old, which I have not yet accomplished.

This impatient approach is also having the opposite outcome; it's burning my time faster without giving me a chance to appreciate it.
Will equilibrium naturally come at some stage? And will I finally accept it?