​It's tough — a continuous grind — both physically and mentally. 
Some days more than others, I feel like giving up. It feels like it's too much, like my tank is empty. 
But now I know that if I hang on long enough, I regain a little perspective, motivation, energy, and direction. Somebody or something, or simply the passing of time, reignites that spark of life force that keeps pushing me forward.

I view these swings as basic training for what life may throw at me, as it has in the past and surely will again in the future. I'm building a callus of conscious resilience, for which I am solely responsible, in addition to the physical resilience gifted to me over millions of years of evolution.

Does it have to be a constant grind for the callus to form? Probably, although not necessarily. 
Do I wish it were somehow easier? Hell yeah.

Above all, I wish I could be more present and "enjoy the process," shifting my focus and narrative from "being hard" to "being constructive."

I'm not special; we're all in the same boat. If anything, I'm one of the lucky ones, for now.

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Being still and silent remains one of the hardest things for me.
It's true; I've lost some interest in going full steam ahead in multiple aspects of my life simultaneously, but that feeling of urgency and impatience to move forward has not vanished. If anything, it seems to have become more predominant as I realize I'm in a race against the clock. I still have many dreams and desires in my heart, ones I've had since I was 20 years old, which I have not yet accomplished.

This impatient approach is also having the opposite outcome; it's burning my time faster without giving me a chance to appreciate it.
Will equilibrium naturally come at some stage? And will I finally accept it?

There are some truly magical, beautiful, positive people in this world. And I feel so privileged to have one on my side; someone who is courageous and vulnerable enough to ask follow-up questions, peeling off the layers, one at a time, to see the truth in my words and behaviors, simply because they care about me. Nothing else, no agenda, just because they care. And with the same care, offering heartfelt and much-needed words of wisdom, support, and grace.

I wonder how it must be to have such a person in your daily life, as a loving father, partner, brother, neighbor, colleague. Whether some of that magic gets lost in the mundane or if, instead, it blossoms even further.
I wonder how it must feel to be that person, such a strong light and pillar of strength, wisdom, and compassion for others.

I wonder if I can ever be such a person, for my family, my wife, my closest friends. Capable of listening from a higher and more peaceful place.
​Thank you, J.

I am listening to Lex's latest podcast with Walter Isaacson, one of the writers I've enjoyed the most in recent years. His biographies of people like Elon Musk, Steve Jobs, Einstein, Leonardo, and Benjamin Franklin are among the most inspiring I've read. There is always something to be inspired by and learn from these larger-than-life historical figures.

I have only listened to half of the podcast because, to be honest, I want to digest what has been shared so far.
Sometimes, to get shit done, I need to let go of the fear of judgment, offending people, or being disliked. When my guiding principles and values are honorable and, of course, I don't harm anyone or put someone in danger in the process, along with all the other obvious considerations that go with it.

I am starting to open my eyes to the truth of how this innocent and widespread fear has affected my life over the years, both personally and professionally.
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Now is the time to tackle some of these fears in my daily life and risk being a little more authentic.
Because ultimately, “If you want to make your dreams come true, the first thing you have to do is wake up.”

Sometimes it is worth becoming aware and acknowledging all the small things we do daily driving our confidence and growth.
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Because it is easy to let them pass as trivial until they compound to be noticed.
But it's in these small things we have real progress.
Thank you Lorenzo and Allegra for showing me the way.